Life is really easy right now. Our home is functional. We are all healthy mentally and physically. We are financially stable.
That aside, life isn’t just easy – it’s great. I almost feel like something has to go wrong soon to balance it all out.
Mike and I have always wanted 3 or 4 children. Pre-Cameron we were pretty set on 4 but now we are leaning more towards 3.
Pre-Cameron we were also thinking that we would have our children very close together (under 2 years apart).. But lately I, in particular, have been reluctant of this idea.
There are several reasons for this:
1) Fear of experiencing more depression and/or anxiety attacks (this factor would be present no matter what timing)
2) I am so enjoying Cameron and want this stage to last
3) Having one baby is my norm. I know what I’m doing. It’s nice.
4) I’m thinking that having Cameron at a stage of more independence and understanding will be beneficial.
The truth is, is that there are positives and negatives of any age gap but seeing this all typed out makes me more aware of OUR situation.
You may be wondering why on earth I’m worrying about this when my son isn’t even 8 months old. Well, initially October was going to be our first month of TTC.. & although my body is already helping with the decision (I don’t have my cycles back) it’s made us think. Now we’re thinking May next year – bit of a jump but it’s because we don’t want another December bubby.